Tuesday, August 30, 2005

11:49 PM

Today..hate it alot...hate it...i can say...i dun like being the me today...


Everything was so fine until i noe about it...i was so stunned...i didnt noe how to react until few seconds later...i thought it was alright so didnt go and think much about it...but after i was alone...i look into it...i then realise how serious the problem is...i felt so sorry for u...sorry..


Went for dance...forget everything at tt moment becuz i was doin sth...but after eveything end...sitting alone in the canteen...the feeling of fear came back again...tt type of feeling jus cant describe...its jus like needle poking through the heart...my tears drop again..i find tt i am so useless...cant do anything but jus seat there to drop tears...but i tried very hard not to really burst out...


Went home straight...but everyone tries to cheer me up...so sorry...but i will nv forget...TUNG YU TING!WE LOVE U!ya...thanks alot..


Came back home...bath...tok to some friends on the phone who is related to tis problem...and are u really goin to leave me?i dunno...but i dun wan...i dun like the feeling being like tis...seriously..i dun like at all...but if u think tt i am blocking ur way ahead...sorry...tis is wat u always tell me...follow ur heart...choose the best for urself and dun bother if i am hurt...


So after tt i tell daddy i am tired so went and slp...but actually i didnt...i jus feel so much hiding myself in the blanket...so i kept thinking...think think think and think...the moment msg came in...i jump up...i dunno y...and daddy realise...he said tt i am not tired at all...kept asking me if there is any thing happen in school or to me...but i kept denying...i shake my head...


And i dun think i will be ok ever agin...i hope i can..but i dunno how...in which way...dun think i can slp later or study even if i am tired or tried very hard to do so...didnt eat for the day...no appetite..nvm...can slim me down...


Ok...ur guys dun worry so much...i am ok...i am fine...i will tried my best to be strong...see me dance tml k...ya...i am jus so fine...and i jus cant stop the feeling in my heart...

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Name: TungYuTing
Age: 16
Location: Taiwan>Singapore Loves: Myself Hates: You

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