Thursday, August 25, 2005
6:34 PM
So many many things i dun wish to happen...it all happened...
First,on tuesday...i was like so alone...i am scared...its was bout 11pm...and suddenly sth happen to kor kor...so mummy and daddy sent him to the hospital and leaving me all alone at home...and its like so late at night...and i wish someone could tok to me...but i scared to disturb them so i did nth and continue to study...until morning..preparing to go to school...i saw them back...haix...didnt stay so late alone at home before...haix..
And for yesterday...erm...nth really much happen...but i noe clarice is pissed so am i...but mine is wit tt teacher...y mus u tell everyone...y?watever it is...jus shut up ur big mouth...ya...i waited for wy...and she didnt noe i was waiting for her in the canteen...she left...so i got no choice but to go home alone...alone...
Today is the worst day i had gone through tis week...started the day wit 3 tests...and got back my chinese test paper...i totally broke down when the teacher hand me over the paper...i didnt get tis type of marks before...my eyes were watery...but clarice hold me back...its the first time i cant control...i felt so much like bursting out...felt so much to have someone to lean on...i am falling...falling off to the place whr it will be the end of my world..so during recess...clarice tok to me...she said its not the end...there is still SA...so she comforted me and try her very best to cheer me up...thanks buddy...but sorry...i jus cant even give u back a smile...sorry...
So carried the heavy heart wit me...didnt had lunch and went for dance...its so pathetic for me...10sec...i dunno wat to do...but i tried to make myself smile...didnt wan anyone to notice bout it...and i did it...
And jus now on the way home...i met mummy...i told her...and it like...i gave her a cut in a heart again...again and again...y am i doin tis?i dun wan tt to happen...i didnt change...i didnt stop hurting u...
I kept asking myself tis few weeks...wat happen to me?if someone noe pls tell me...y am i like tis...making so many hurt and so many disappoint...its all my fault...ur can blame me as much as ur wan...sorry to make so many suffer...sorry to make so many heart break...sorry...i got nth to say but sorry..sorry to the one tt love me...sorry to the one tt is reading tis post now...becuz u had wasted so much of ur time reading it...sorry...i am useless...i am worthless...i am jus a stupid girl...
And bout u...hope u are feeling better now wit ur flu...dun get sick again...its really not nice...i dun like the feeling when u are sick...so...get well soon k...and i am fine...dun worry...
I am so so so tired now...but i jus cant do anything bout it......i have nth...but jus continue to study...besides studying...i dunno wat to do anymore...i will jus drift and fall off...no one is goin to hold me...no one is goin to let me lean on...
So...jus dun worry bout me everyone..if ur does...its wasting time...i am fine...hope ur too..and tml got dance...again...and its exercise...
