Wednesday, September 28, 2005
11:44 PM
Its 11 now...and i am feeling really sick...didnt study much today as once i reach home...rest in bed...feel so much like vomiting every time i cough..and i found out i cough out blood...nvm...haix...so many things happen tis mth..its the toughest mth of the yr...i think..
First,exam is comin in bout 10 days time...and i dunno if i am ready...i cant do anything now but jus to study...i promise myself tt i will try my very best...jus like today...got my eng oral...erm...i think quite ok...and went for maths remedial after tt...i cant really concentrate...feeling so hot becuz of the flu...but i cant do anything..jus sit there and open my ears big...tml got maths remedial too...how i wish there is everyday...there is no time for me already...
Second,bout tt idiotic bro thing...i am really not goin to do anything bout it already...first...u make me have hope...i hlp u to bluff and all tt...but now..u make me totally give up on u...i think not only me..but most all who noe bout is thing...why mus u be like tt?do u noe u are so selfish?get the things u want but didnt noe how the ppl feel ard u...nvm...dun come back...forever dun come back...tis is fate..maybe u are jus born in the wrong family...sorry to say tis...
And about our gang...i think there is jus some things goin on...but i really dunno wat...i cant find the reason...i tried my very best to make us like wat we use before...but i dunno if i can...now tis situation is jus like a broken glass...haix...we will nv forgive until we forget...
Nxt bout wy...tok to u on phone yesterday...u didnt seemed well...watever it is...jus be urself...nv feel urself left out when someone said sth...maybe i cant understand how u feel now...but i will always be here...i have shoulder to let u lean on and cry...so jus jia you for the comin challenges...u did well tis time round...
As for u...erm...hope everything is goin right now...started studying?hope u are...i have faith in u k...believe in urself..dun care bout wat other say...dun let them affect u...but dunno y...jus feeling so worry...maybe is becuz tt someone tell me sth yesterday...and i nv wan tt to happen...nv...after exam i am goin back...dunno how much i am goin to miss u...
Getting so much pressure frm all ard me...but i still can hold on to it..ppl taking oral and exam...all the best...dun get urslef too stressed...after exam...jus let off and play...now..i am goin to study...so nite nite everyone...slp early...=)
if u had love me before,u will nv leave...leave me with all the promise u have made...
